Beginnings

I could write a book about how I got to this point, but I think you would get bored. But understanding my background is probably important to understand how I got into these situations. 

I have been married a long time but I am extremely lonely. You see, my wife was injured in a car accident and now lives under constant care in a nursing home. She's been there over a decade and I miss our relationship. I visit her almost every day but I don't know if she recognizes me or even knows what's going on around her. 

At some point this year, the loneliness became crushing. I miss the contact of a woman's skin, and the smile she gives, the little hugs, and funny quips. I miss the sex. I don't even know how long it's been, but I assure you, it's been too long. I've dealt with the ethical and social repercussions of finding someone to hook up with and I decided I need to do something for my own life too. My mental health has suffered and I have found that depression tells you horrible things. I need a rescue, and while a woman doesn't solve everything that I need, just a little close companionship would go a long way towards a more-positive outlook in my life.

So these posts will be my story, my adventure, of trying to get a date, a hookup, or hell, a one-night stand if that's all I can manage. Why share? Well this has been an enlightening experience that has destroyed some of my faith in humanity. I have been conned, blackmailed, toyed with, teased, and riddled with scams and money-grabs and I am still no closer to getting even a hug from a real person. I am sharing because I know I'm not alone in this quest and my embarrassing attempts at finding any connection might inspire someone else to avoid being scammed. Learn from my mistakes and maybe you will have some better luck.